Nothing much to say, but a thought out thought all the same.

I don't really have anything to say because I feel a little down in a few areas of my world. I have soooo much to be thankful for which, as I have blogged before, erases any shadow of rejection or fear that I may observe in myself.

I find that rejection is so selfish for me to take upon because I am sure that I have many people who love me and for me to want to hear that I am loved seems petty. Then again, I was the little kid who was rarely told how much she was loved, often told the bad things that she was doing without directly being shown love and I was left guessing whether I had done something wrong or not.

As an adult I am forced to work through these issues, but sometimes (especially when hormones are raging) it's hard to internalize and this is a therapeutic way for me to "see" into my own thoughts and express them without lashing out.