Alas, perhaps it was too lofty a thought

I know that Bill, Mr. Masters of Poetry doesn't read this but his spouse and the love of his life does, so would you ming please telling your man, dear Carole, that his use of vocabulary is fun to watch and part of the reason I want to be so eloquent in my use of words ;)

Okay so my lofty thought was trying to have a party while being 28 weeks pregnant. I forgot or I just got too busy to invite people and only on Monday did I realize that I had done so. I don't want to be more lofty and "postpone it" so cancel is the word but I feel crappy that I don't get to honor my husband with a 40th party. We do HONOR God daily so that's taken care of and all of our friends should know that they can come anytime. If you were planning to be here anyway, come but I have nothing planned. I have been putting off writing this blog because I am half embarrassed but on the other hand, my 2nd to last blog has made it SO easy for me to be even more real with you all. The issue here is that I just can't do big projects anymore. *sigh* I was hoping to make it to 30 weeks but 2 weeks ago I hit a wall and avoided the reality of my sinking energy levels and last week admitted to not having any more energy. I do believe that I have been given the ability to balance my life, with the 2 little kids, the 1 biggish kid and the 2 big kids, make dinners, moderately clean the house, parent, vacuum when the parenting of chores works and well drive. I enjoy driving. That brings me to this...WE HAVE A NEW VAN!!!

I wish I could tell you the whole big story but, listen, we wouldn't be having this beautiful (I think she will look like Jackson) princess of a child coming into our lives if our old crappy van hadn't died and Kevin's cousin hadn't given us the Astro. We love the 91 Astro van but it is oooooold and well over 300k, has an exhaust leak of some sort (stinky), horrible on gas, but has totally served us very well. I think it has a lot left in it, but it will need TLC from a person who also loves this series of van and wants to put a bit of money into it. ANYWAY... we have been looking for a while for a new (to us) one and YAY! on Sunday we looked at one in Surrey and by Monday night we were the proud owners of a 1995 Astro Van with only 177k on it!!! Can you imagine! GOD IS SO GOOD TO US! that should have cost us close to 4000. Okay so why was it so cheap...I was asking myself, God and Kevin that same question over and over but we were feeling like it was the "START THE CAR" type moment like the lady in the IKEA commercial running towards her husband after a sale, have you seen that one? Anyway, long story short, this blog is already toooo long, she the lady who sold it LIED to us, out and out LIED. "I should have said in the ad that it had A/C capability but it conked out in the winter." Kev took the van to a friend of his' brother's place and get this...... the compressor is not even there! So, as I type this, Kev is on his way to the wrecker to get a compressor for 100bucks! YAY GOD! We so neeeeed A/C in this family because.... almost full circle (love this kind of blog) I love to drive, I am too pregnant to do much more than take my kids places and A/C will make that doable!

So to recap, no party, new van, too pregnant to do anything and still, as always, sucking it up like a good PrincessButtercup :)

You all really did encourage me to blog like this so I hope that I increase my readership to encourage others to do the same! What a release it is...

love you all...even those who may not comment or think I don't. I genuinely love all people in my life no matter how distant either geographically or emotionally or in lifestyle I hope to reconnect with you over the summer. HUGS! 

What a WONDERFUL bunch of woman I get to be a part of!

I am not JUST saying that because you guys commented on my blog and encouraged me so much, I am not saying that because I had a crappy time and you helped me to overlook the crappiness of it and I am not saying it because I am sucking up. You guys really are the best there is! This list is is CERTAINLY not exhaustive but:

Tanya I am so happy that I get to be a philosopher and that you actually feel that way about me. It's a neat feeling to think that today. I love the history that we have as friends and love that I can count you as sister.

Mom, you always know what to say, even if I don't like it but I did this time ;) It always warms me that you love me so much like a kid of your own and that you are proud of me. Thank you!

Denise, you have SUCH an amazing way with words, (ps GET BLOGGING and boldly), I am getting to the point of actually not caring about what "they" think. My last blog and this one referencing you and others is the proof ;)

Carole, I actually got fuel to blog the way I do, because YOU my friend, are so to the bone truthy that it gives me the courage to do the same.

Tara, sister I love you! I just love how fricken cool you are, you make me laugh and make me look at my world in a healthy way I am so proud of you I talk about you all the time.

Tricia, you don't read my blog, but one day you will... God has given me the best bunch of friends BUT you must know that I am a good friend because you are the best friend and have taught me by being who you are to me. Faithful one, you are unchanging just like Jesus and I love that I get to have you as my best friend :)

I love you all!